few days short

Just few more days and it would have been a year...a year from that heart wrenching phone call. Unfortunately I can still recall that very day so vividly, the location, the conversation, the time...the pain I had to endure and still do every so often.

You know who you are and I am sure you would never imagine how I felt that day or for that matter how I feel right now, after that call. I spoke to a close friend of mine recently and told him the tragic phone call I got, and he said...'you must be worry-free!' I was shocked at his response, as if he saw all....well he can 'see' alot so to speak, but I was in denial, never wanted to believe him, always wanted to prove him wrong..but he beat me to it, or rather fate caught up with me...8 years late.

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I just trimmed my hair by the way. oh and I miss Bali....the last trip we had (I know....so totally random)

re-wrote

i re-wrote this post 3 times before deciding that I would not want to write anything right now, maybe not today. My mind is still muddled from all the things that has just happened to me (in the past 2 days), and I believe the worst is only to be expected in a few days time.